5/19/2013

Humans! Honestly!

Today I was reminded of the one blaring fact that we are only human. We are selfish and ignorant and sometimes rude. We generally don't think about others we randomly meet. We don't think that maybe that person has a loved one in the hospital and that's why they cut us off. We don't think about how someone's child might be crying in the middle of the food aisle because they just fell and hurt their arm. We don't think that others could possibly have it as hard as us and need someone to cut them some slack. 

I am totally guilty of this. I get road rage and yell at the other cars. They don't know I do it but I do. I get mad when someone walks slow in front of me in the store. Or if the lines are really long. Or a light takes forever. Or someone's kid is loud. No one is free of the guilt of being angry for no good reason.

These things I mentioned, they are uncontrollable things. I can't control other people, or stores or traffic. I can't make people be nice to me or let me go ahead of them in line because I'm pregnant and my husband has a broken leg. I can't do anything about it. All I can do is control me.

The way I act and the way I feel about things. That is all I have control of. When this wonderful blessing of a son comes into my life, I can't even control him! I will love him uncontrollably but I will not be able to control when he is hungry or poopy or when his teeth come in. I can only control me.

So when we think this way and change how we see the world and the people in it, will we allow it to change us too? Will we allow it to open our eyes and realize that, no we can not control others but we can control how we see others? We can change our negative mood. We can decide to take a deep breath and slow down before we react. We no longer have to think that life sucks because we can't control it. Because we can control how we feel about it. 

Life can be wonderful if stop trying to control it and live it. Choose to be happy now, and fight to keep it that way. That's not to say life can't be sad or frustrating or irritating. It very much can and will be!! But the way to get through it is to decide now that you will be happy. Then when you need to grieve or be mad you can feel that way but move on quickly instead of wallow in your self pity. And it is self pity after a while. The world won't stop and wait for you. It's going to keep on plugging on and no one is going to think about what happened again. Except you and your loved ones. 

So grieve, be mad, but move on. And realize, that no one is perfect. We all deserve respect and kindness and love. And if we all acted this way then, by golly, the world would indeed be a better place.

5/12/2013

To The Greatest Mother Ever!

My mother is amazing! She definitely deserves this shout out on this special day. My mother has always been there for me and she continues to be there for me today. I love her very very much. I am so grateful to have had her as my mother growing up. She has been an awesome teacher, nurturer and friend. I may not have always been the greatest to her but never did she give up on me. She taught me all about life. She let me fail so I could learn and was there to help me know how to get through those hard times. She has been a constant blessing in my life.

Man, my mom rocks! I just love that she loves me so much and would do anything for me. As I have gotten older and moved away from home and back again I have realized that my mom is just an amazing friend to me. I love getting advise from her and talking to her. She has great advise for me. Also I love that she is there to bounce creative ideas off of. My mother is one of the most creative people I know! She always has a good idea!

I can't wait to be a mom myself and I am super thankful to my mother for teaching me how to be a good one. I hope I am as great as her! Also I am super grateful that my mom will be around to help me with the first child. I will definitely need her wisdom!

I love you mommy! Thanks for all you do!

Last but certainly not least I want to make a shout out to my awesome mother in law! I am so grateful for her and the amazing son she raised. She did a great job and I love her very much. Thanks for raising your son right so I could marry him in the temple! I wish you lived closer!

Thank you! Happy Mother's Day to you! :)

5/02/2013

Worst Day EVER!

Okay so most of you have been updated via Facebook as to what happened to my husband. But if you haven't or you want to know more, read on.

So Saturday started out like any other day. David worked till five and while he was there I ran some errands with my parents and cleaned a little and made brownies for dessert. When David got home from work we went to a friends house for dinner. It was really fun! We had hamburgers, tater tots and, of course, brownies! We played with their adorable babies and they gave us a bunch of baby stuff. It was all going great.

Then suddenly, while the wife and I were talking, there was a loud *BANG*! So, apparently, while the wife and I paid no attention to our husbands, they decided to check out each others guns. (Okay we did know this was going on, but not everything, just that the guns were out.) They were trying to take apart the gun to clean it and it ended up going off. David's friend was holding it, and David got shot. It hit his right leg. Went in right below the knee. David screamed, the friend ran around freaking out and the wife and I sat there stunned.

I was in shock! Everything froze and I thought this was all a joke. Seriously. I was stunned! It wasn't till I saw the blood that I really started to freak out. David was holding his leg and shaking from shock. So I grabbed the towel and helped him hold it, and him on the couch. I was still trying to figure out what was going on and how this happened when the ambulance got there and took us to the hospital. I wanted to cry but my head still hadn't caught up with what was happening, so I couldn't. It was a weird feeling. David was so brave though! He didn't even cry! I love him! He's so strong!

So luckily the bullet missed all the veins and arteries and ligaments. It was great news! His bone was fractured though, but getting shot and walking (sort of) away with just a broken leg and a gun hole? I say we lucked out! It could have been so much worse! He did have surgery on Sunday and they went in and put a metal plate and two screws in. He will be out of commission for a while but he will regain the use of his leg and once we get through the pain and physical therapy, he will be golden!

I am so glad it didn't hit anyone else, especially the babies, they were in bed. I really wish it hadn't hit anyone but I am glad it didn't hit me, for the fact that I would have more than likely lost the baby and that would have been devastating! I tell David he took a bullet for me and the baby. I love him so much! I hate that this happened! But I think maybe it was to humble us and put us through a challenge to bring us closer together. I am also thankful I had already quit work. I wouldn't have been able to work. At all! I needed to be with my hubby! Also this has kicked my butt into gear packing wise. My wonderful mother came and helped me clean and organize and pack. We basically got the house crutch friendly for David, so he could come home. Also we have almost everything ready to be moved in a month. It's nice.

I still wish this didn't happen and I don't know why it did, but I know it did happen for a reason. I do know that I and my hubby are going to make the most of it. We are going to do what we can to be better to each other and just better in general.

Well, till next time, love your family dearly and hold them close! You never know what will happen.